Hi! Yet again it has almost been a month since I have posted, sorry. So far 2015 has been filled with lots of emotions both good and bad, however finally funding has been approved to start treatment in London and I am pleased to announce I leave for my first two week inpatient hospital stay within the next week.
I am extremely grateful I get this opportunity to have the best specialists for EDS help me; I am so grateful for everyone who has supported me through the CD and fundraising, for all those who have helped me get to this stage of this journey and for my family and friends who continually support me through everything that happens. I praise God for everyone and I give thanks to God for carrying me through every step of the way because I would not have gotten this far without Him. However this is only the first step of the journey over, the first hurdle has been crossed in getting the funds for the expenses and getting the approval to go to London for this treatment; although there are many hurdles yet to come.
Yes I am happy that getting to London has been made possible and is so soon, but I would be lying to you if I didn’t say I was scared and anxious for the next step in this journey. I think this is natural though to feel this way, I am only human and my main doctor in London has already warned me from the start that the next year is going to be extremely difficult. However I am thankful to the person who reminded me that these emotions are subjective, these feelings of worry, frustration, anxiousness and pain are all influenced by my personal situation and circumstances right now. Although there is not only the subjective but also the objective. Yes I am scared but I also have faith, I choose the objective over the subjective, I choose faith.
Emotions will come and go throughout our whole lives, but God will always remain the same. God will always remain, His promises never break, and His word is truer than anything I feel, truer than anything I will ever have to experience, truer than any of the circumstances I will have to face and truer than anything in the world. I can rest on God’s promises, trusting His word that God stands forever.
“the grass withers and the flowers fade, but the word of God stands forever.” Isaiah 40:8
I don’t know what to expect in London, I don’t know how difficult the whole experience will be but I ask God to give me the grace to push my emotions aside and choose faith. I will trust God through the unknown and changing circumstances whatever they bring through God’s help and strength.
My faith is in God and I know I can trust in Him as London approaches. I will get through these first two weeks because God is stronger and His mighty power will get me through whatever is thrown at me.
“In all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:37-39.
I cannot thank you all enough for getting me to this stage in the journey! I would ask that you would pray for my family as they stay at home whilst I am away, and also pray for my mum and I as we set off for this initial 2 week hospital stay. Thank-you! I hope to update through the two weeks of my stay!