Sorry it has been awhile since I have updated my blog, I’ve been having a very difficult time. Over the past week I have had two dislocations of my “good” shoulder, meaning two trips to hospital and two lots of sedation to relocate my shoulder. To say the least, this has definitely been a difficult and challenging week in a number of respects.
These dislocations were not only painful, but also landed me in a very tricky situation since it meant I had no use of either arm. I needed mum to do everything for me, I was angry and frustrated, I wanted my independence but I just couldn’t. Having to depend on someone else for everything brought back many memories from years before when I was having shoulder surgeries on both arms; I hated not being able to use my arms and honestly, I was scared that things would start going back that way. However despite these dreadful 7 days God has taught me wonderful things.
God reminded me how weak and fragile we all are as human beings. Our life is a mere moment in the grand scheme of things and really without God we are helpless. We are weak and our true strength comes from God alone. The bible reminds us of this on countless occasions;
“The Lord is the stronghold of my life; of whom shall I be afraid.” Psalm 27:1.
“And do not be grieved for the joy of the Lord is your strength.” Nehemiah 8:10.
“Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually.” Psalm 105:4.
“He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength.” Isaiah 40:29.
Without God I am weak, weary and fragile; nothing in life is a guarantee apart from God and therefore I am thankful that although I am weak, God is strong and He wraps me up in His strong and mighty arms.
This week God has also shown me that as fragile humans God is not only our strength but also our provider. The word’Jehovah’ translates as meaning ‘God our provider.’ God has the unlimited power to take care of every single need regardless of how big or small it may be. “And my God will supply every need of yours according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:19. God has reminded me this week that although God is the ultimate provider I should be content with what I have, whether that’s with the use of no arms, one arm or both because I can trust God will provide me with what I need.
I’ve realised that life is a gift from God, salvation is a gift and the use of my arms is also a gift from God. Who am I to demand the use of my arms? To be angry at my situation and demand the use of my arms as if it’s a right, as if it’s something I need or deserve. Using my arms is a gift from God and it’s not something I own, nor is it something that I should be demanding to have. God has taught me to be content with what I have. Yes I am thankful that I have the use of my arms back again, but from this week God has taught me an important lesson of trust and contentment. Therefore whatever the future holds I can trust in God my provider and strength. Through whatever life may bring I pray that God helps me to be content regardless of the circumstances; whether that means use of both arms or use of one; needing a wheelchair or running marathons; or having EDS or being cured for all of this is a gift, not a right to be demanded. No matter what my circumstances in the future may hold I want to be content in Christ.
“For I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content.” Philippians 4:11.
Thank-you again for all your encouragement and support. I would really appreciate it if you could pray for the CD launch on Friday. Not many days left now and we are so excited. We invite you all to come along and worship God with us, please share the word and bring along family and friends. For more details please see our Facebook page or contact us directly. Thanks!