I apologise it has been so long since I’ve updated, to be honest I’m really struggling at the moment. I’ve had lots of pain, my wrist has dislocated, my knee still continues to dislocate daily, my shoulder is still out of place, I keep falling over and last night I ended up in hospital again after falling and my pain becoming completely out of control.
I’m so frustrated and everything seems to be going wrong right now, it feels like there is such a huge weight over me. I have so many university deadlines, I’m exhausted, I’m fed up with all these dislocations and I hate having to live day in day out with such intense pain, I shouldn’t have to live on extremely strong pain relief every single day just to be able to move and function on a daily basis. The life I’m living right now is not right, shoulders are supposed to remain in place and it just seems unfair that I’ve been left with a dislocated shoulder for so long. I just desperately need to get to London, there is still no definite date on when I’m going however it looks like I’ll hopefully be going before Christmas, all I can say is, the sooner the better.
Waiting is too hard, too painful. Everything is just happening way too slow. However all this time I’ve realised I have been focussing too much on getting to London as soon as possible to start treatment rather than trusting in God and His own perfect timing.
It’s time for me to stop worrying and stressing; it’s time to start trusting in God, my helper and my strength.
“Fear not for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous hand.” Isaiah 41:10.