This week has been an emotional roller-coaster for both myself and my family. It is difficult to accept what is ahead of us and the massive disruption it will bring to family life. I will require long periods of time in hospital, however what I may not have explained yet is that I get out of hospital at weekends. Although this will be a good break from hospital life, I will not be well enough to travel home for a weekend, nor will I be able to stay somewhere in London without being cared for. Therefore it looks like my mum will have to fly out each weekend or stay with me all the time. This too is not practical as my younger brother has such an important year ahead at school. My mum is really feeling the stress of knowing what to do and we could really do with your prayers right now.
However God is leading and guiding us through this difficult time. I am so thankful God’s steadfast love remains with us regardless of what we are facing in the upcoming year. I know that we can rest assured and trust in our almighty God who rescues, helps and saves us; who stays right by our side and catches us when we fall. I know that I can trust in God and his amazingly abundant love which never ends.
“Out of my distress I called on the Lord, the Lord answered me and set me free. The Lord is on my side; I WILL NOT FEAR.” Psalm 118:5-6.
At the beginning of this week I made the decision that I will continue to study for my law degree despite having to spend a lot of the next year in hospital. I am filled with thanks and praise to God that I am able to study by distance learning and not give up on my dream to become a solicitor or barrister. Whilst at times it may be difficult to balance pain, poor concentration, hospital life and treatment with studying; I know that God has placed this passion I have for law on my heart. I know that this is the path God has set out for me. Some may think I’m crazy as this will be 3rd time attempting to get through one whole year of studying for my degree, but I will not give up or lose heart for the joy of the Lord is my strength.
Recently I have been reading through the book of Nehemiah and God has really been encouraging and teaching me so much through this short book. God sent Nehemiah on a mission to rebuild the wall of Jerusalem, therefore Nehemiah set off on his journey with very few resources or a plan of how he would build this wall. Instead he knew to trust in God and soon a group of people began rebuilding the wall. Although this was God’s will for Nehemiah it didn’t mean everything was plain sailing, in fact the builders faced opposition, mocking and famine. However instead on examining on how hard things were, they focussed and trusted on God, they knew that God would fight for them and so they began working rather than worrying. They did not give up and they recognised that just because God had set this plan upon Nehemiah’s heart didn’t mean the journey was going to be easy.
I find a lot of comfort from this, I know that God has given be a passion for helping the weak and vulnerable, a passion for law and fighting injustice. Therefore just because I have faced obstacles doesn’t mean I am going to give up. Just because I have a disability doesn’t mean I cannot complete my degree and practice law; and therefore instead of focussing on how difficult it will be, to balance studying with being in hospital, I will trust in God and just start the work which God has set me to do.
“The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor, he has sent me to bring good news to the poor, he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives and the opening of the prison to those who are bound.” Isaiah 61:1.
I am brokenhearted at the injustice happening throughout the world at the moment. Christians being persecuted, children imprisoned unjustly and left to starve in dreadful conditions, human trafficking happening everywhere, even right under our own noses. These people need help, they need rescued and I believe that not only does God save these people but He also uses us as vessels to do this work and make a difference in the lives of these people who are suffering beyond our imagination.
I know I don’t need a law degree to help, but God has set out this path for me therefore I will follow and trust in His guidance. But whilst I am doing this there is so much we all can do to help and most importantly we can pray. We can also give, volunteer and campaign. Why not raise awareness? Do people actually realise the facts and figures of what is happening:
– In a 14 month period between 2010 and 2011, 2,409 children were victims of sexual exploitation in England alone.
– There are an estimated 3.5 million children living in poverty in the UK.
– The NSPCC reports that an estimated 55,000 children who have experienced sexual abuse receive no therapeutic support afterwards.
– In North Korea being a Christian is forbidden.
– There are 161 countries identified as being affected by human trafficking and;
– An estimated 27 million people are enduring modern day slavery at the moment.
These are only a few facts and figures, but each of them are devastating but thankfully we can trust in God and He will lead us on how to help these people, for we all have the ability to do something.
Below are some links on what a number of charities are currently doing to prevent such awful injustice, including tips on what we can do to help;
I want to thank-you all for your continued support with both reading my blog and the comforting and encouraging messages I have received. I really do appreciate every kind word. This week I really have been comforted in knowing “the joy of the Lord is my strength” I pray that this will comfort you as it has helped me, do not give up, keep fighting and trust in God. God Bless.